There
comes a time in every writer's career where they have to sever the hand
to save the arm. For me, that time is now. Sometimes that severing
involves you stopping halfway through and beginning again. Sometimes
it's a matter of scrapping the entire project even though you had high
hopes for it. In my case, it meant tabling it, hoping that one day it
might have another opportunity (one way or another) to flourish.
I won't go into great detail with the premise, but I will say the timing of the release was extremely time
sensitive. I had a required "due-date" to have the book written,
edited, and published. That date was doable, but not without sacrificing
tremendous time and effort I don't have to spare at the moment. Some
might argue that I shouldn't bite the bullet and give it all I've got
for the next few months if I truly believed in the book, but I have to
disagree. And here's why...
I have a life outside that
one story. Just in writing, I have a sequel to finish and a separate
series to begin. There's a stand-alone I'm working on for someone else.
My kiddos are in ballet and have school functions, and I have a husband
who actually enjoys my company. One of my very best friends is getting
married in June, and I have the privilege of being matron of honor. Then
there's marketing, planning, writing, and blogging all while not being a
complete shut-in.
So,
yeah. I could force it to work. I could throw a bunch of crappy words
onto paper and call it a book. But what a disservice to myself. How
could I be proud of something I put half my heart into? Let's not forget
the project itself. If anyone loves their stories at all, they want
them to shine. Writers want their writing to be worthy of the story
because they feel so strongly about it. Or rather, they should.
So, while it makes me sad to lay this down, maybe to
never reemerge, it also encourages me that I've grown enough in my
writing to know when to persevere and when not to. It isn't defeat to
say not now, because not now doesn't mean not ever. You deserve to put 100% of yourself and your heart into your work. Not only that, I wholeheartedly believe my friend Chi's philosophy. She says, "I believe stories are given to us, and it's up to us to find the words to do them justice."
So be an all or nothing person!
Happy writing :D
Awesome Post!!! "Not now" NEVER means "Not Ever". Hugs and strength flying to you now my brave friend!!! MWAH!!! (needed a few more !!! opportunities, cuz you're that AWESOME!!!) ;)
ReplyDeleteGood insights as always! I have had a shelved project for going on a year and a half, it just isn't that projects time. And when it is, I will know it and it will have my heart! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, ladies! And here are a few more !!! to emphasize my gratitude ;)
ReplyDeleteThere's a right time to everything. The *hard* part is learning when exactly that is. The *important* part is never giving up just because you're taking a pause. Happy writing, girls!